It's truly been fun.

The idea occurred around half an hour ago(From the moment this particular sentence was typed) that I should probably make a farewell thread before leaving. Before, I always saw farewell threads as a way to get a last bit of attention before disappearing into the abyss, but I suppose I can see why people make them now. Emotional closure.

To put it short, I'm sorry for wasting everyone's time with the VN project. I was really enthusiastic about it, but then I disappear away and thus the project is dead. It's my fault, and I apologize for wasting the time and/or effort everyone who's involved and is pissed at my failure. I have no excuses, I can't stand the smallest signs of conflict and argument(Caused by me no less) or any sort of expectation on what I should be doing as project leader, hence I disappear for days at a time after discussing stuff. Probably goes to show I shouldn't bother starting up the project in the first place. Whether it's cuz I'm a shit leader or I don't have passion, in the end I ran away and everyone's efforts(Which to be honest, wasn’t too much except from Centrik. We barely started, we didn’t do anything, but knowing that doesn’t make me less scared of here) were wasted, and now I’m scared to come back. The following words come off as sarcastic to even me, but I hope at least to concerned people, it means something when I say that I'm ashamed of myself, and I hesitate to come back and have fun with you all. That’s why I’m going to run away, because I can’t handle it. Cowardly, I know. I’ve always been bothered by the smallest of things, and nothing’s going to change that.

The other reason I’m leaving is that ever since I’ve started avoiding this place for a while, I’ve realized I’m probably too emotionally dependent on the people here. Sounds nice and caring and all, but really that’s not a good thing. I open up the cbox once every few seconds to see what people say before closing because I realize I was supposed to avoid the place, and I feel sad when I’m not chatting, not gonna deny it. Ever since I became a regular a number of months/years ago, I come here whenever I’m on an open laptop with internet connection and not surrounded by people, which means pretty damn often. I’ve sunked more hours lurking in chat than I have spent on Melty Blood’s training mode. I’m running away from here, either to some other not-as-awesome community, or away from online communities altogether. I want to be less dependent on things. There’s nothing wrong with being dependent on friends for emotional stability, but personally I view it as a sign of weakness, and I can’t stand the fact that it applies to me. It’s not as big of a reason as the first one to me, but it’s a reason.

Am I making too big of a thing out of this? Oh hell fucking yes. Am I just trying to get some sympathy? Perhaps. Am I just making up drama for some attention? Probably. Doesn’t make me feel any less guilty or scared of coming back.

What compels me to write this long-ass thing? I hope that by making it, I’d feel more compelled not to open WDA at all, and maybe have some emotional closure to myself(The other answer would be autism and paranoia, and dumbassness). Also, being known as the guy with the longest farewell thread in the WDA community ain't a bad thing to aim for. I’m simply typing all this down for some level of self-satisfaction, I won’t deny it, so feel free to label me whatever for running away. Am I even really running away? All I’m doing is leaving one specific online community for no good reason, does that act deserve a label as noble as that? That’s one of the problems I’m worrying about.

Nour: While thinking up who to address last is pretty easy, thinking who to address first is pretty hard, but I’ve decided that you, Nour, probably fits the criteria. You’re like, 11 now? The real world is only going to become harsher the more you grow up, and I hope you stay a good person in spite of that. Also, do try to get along with Mido a bit better. He’ll deny it, but I think he’d be happy if he gets along with his sister, no incest involved. Really. I barely know the guy but I don’t doubt that’s the case.

Supa: The true idol/icon of WDA. Always warm and accepting of everyone, friendliest guy all around. You might be a little uncomfortable with the praise, but I hope you stay the way you are as well. I have a feeling you’re not quite this sweet irl or anything, and perhaps you’ve a much darker disposition, but whether that is the true you, or whether the online you is your true self, that’s up to you to decide. Maybe I’m just looking too much into it, in which case dismiss me. I’m sorry, but I have a tendency to think I can read people when I really can’t.

Al/Fish/J.J Knight: This is pretty rude of me to say, but sadly I haven’t hanged around you three all that much, and aside from some differences, you three might as well all be the same person to me. Take this not as praise or flattery, but as a relatively neutral statement when I say that the three of you are the most mature (Or at least, the most level-headed) people in the community, and thus I find it a little hard to really talk to both of you much. It’s cool, I just dunno what to say around you all since I like fucking around and my impression is that none of you like people who fuck around and troll and stuff. Just gonna say, peace out, I guess?

Kimo: Not something I really like to say since it’s just downright rude(again) and malicious, but your positiveness annoyed me more than a few times. With that said however, you’re probably one of the most bro people around here. Don’t take my annoyance to heart, my disdain for it aside I think it’s great to be positive and preserve your childishness. I wish I was less of an ass, then perhaps I’d be more eager to bro out with you, but since I’m not, I hope you brighten other peoples’ days in place of me. Stay cool, Monokuma.

Armand: The other most bro guy of WDA. If I recall Digi returned to WDA like, super recently. I know you two have some history together, and I don’t know if you two get along, but if not, I hope you do. That aside, magnificent taste in waifu you have, and I really hope your college credits situation goes well, if it didn’t go well already. Haven’t talked to you lately so I’m out of the loop.

Earl: The other most level-headed of the people here, I think. You’re simply a magnificent member and contributor to here, and sadly, I don’t have much to say. I recall that one time the chat was so fucking argumentative, and you were pretty angry at how immature we were, and again, sorry ‘bout that. I don’t know much about your circumstances, and while that fills me with regret, at the same time that’s exactly the kind of relationship I want to have with everyone, so I suppose at least with you I was successful.

Centrik: Really, really sorry to have wasted your musical talent and efforts on something that I’ve effectively abandoned. If I recall, we didn’t really even talk much even though you were present for a long time, only a while later did we talk much and all. Still, keep that k. spirit going strong.

Saty: Hope you will eventually find a good girl to settle with in a romantic relationship. In hindsight, you had pretty bad luck with girls actually, now that I think about it. Also, as the first mechabro I met here, I do hope you’ll enjoy SRW 3 and beyond when you get to it.

RD: The second mechabro, although if I recall you were here longer than Saty. We really only barely talked, but you like gunplay, that’s fucking bro material right there. Peace.

Re: I know you got people to watch Gaim so you can discuss it with friends, but I’m too scared of coming here tbh, so even though I’m into it, I won’t be discussing it. Anyways, third mechabro, you were great to talk to, and I own you for introducing me to OOO and Gaim and beyond. Also, Micchy a shit.

Lesbi: We argued a lot back that one time, and I still can’t really stand your point of view on the matter, but you’re one of the reliable presences on here, and I wish I had gotten along better. That does remind me, you like mecha as well(to an extent, at least), so that’s mechasis 1.

PW: Oh the amount of times I’ve been annoyed at you, whether for Higurashi fangirling or otherwise, but still, you added to the fun I had here. Don’t annoy too many people, and keep at it alright?

Susan: My boy, you were too often picked upon, but I always knew you had it within you, to become the permanent presence you are now, and hopefully one of the pillars of WDA(No sarcasm). We barely talked, but again, as much as you annoy people your presence is fun.

Mirasi: Your overconfidence is probably going to be detrimentive to you in the long run, but other than that and the unfunny sex jokes, you’re fine. Bob the Builder TCG was fun as hell, and I hope you keep playing it.

Vettel: Maybe it’s all in my imagination, but you have a pretty aggressive aura, and that makes hard to talk to sometimes. I know you from the days I hanged in DNF chat, and I still don’t have much to say, just er, peace out?

Ryuuji: I mix you up with RD a lot, so my words to you are more or less the same, excluding mecha. Sorry I don’t have much to say.

Surb: I have a feeling you’re gonna say something among the lines of >josh was addressed before me ;_;. I dunno why you’re gone now(If what I heard was right anyways), but don’t ever lose the loliconism inside you.

Digi: Haven’t talked to you at all ever since your most recent return, but have fun here. it’s still the same amazing place it was when you left.

Mau5: Sena still a best Haganai. Peace out.

Datch: Nanoha is fucking awesome, holy shit. Thank you again, A’s truly is amazing as you’ve said.

JY: Your enormous and incomprehensible monologues gives me a feeling so complicated. In the end I can’t decipher anything about how you are in real life, but I think that’s a good thing. I was mean to you at more than one point, and I don’t even intend on trying to understand you, but I hope you find success in life.

EW: In the end we don't talk too much anymore, you hanged out mainly in DNF, and I try to avoid that place. Plus, this is rude and all but I prefer the guy EW back then, before the gender reveal. I know back then wasn’t a fun period of your life and you’re much happier now, but just something I felt like saying. With that said, I hope your kid grows strong and well. I don’t reply a lot so it may not seem so, but in hindsight I enjoyed the private conversations we had.

Leokane: As the second last guy I address, worry not, I totally didn’t forget about you until just now or anything. Really. That said we were here for about more or less the same amount of time, so more than anymore else I view you as my equal(I naturally look down or up at people, so that’s rare if I say so myself). Pretty sure I annoyed you more than a few times at some points, but thanks for dealing with me, and I hope things work out for you as well.

Ali: More than anyone else I’m afraid of you. I’m not sure I can word it right, but er, I’m afraid of having pissed you off or annoyed you or disappointed you due to this VN thing. It sounds like I’m blaming you, but I’m not. I’ve been way too reliant on the internet for the longest while now, and I had thoughts of leaving for quite a while actually. We argued a lot(And I’ll admit it, at the end of each one of them I don’t exactly harbor the most pleasant or civil of emotions), but that aside, you’re still my best friend here, on the internet. Due to the chance that perhaps indirect communication over the internet doesn’t really count as real friendship or anything, I won’t say you’re my best friend in the world, but you’re my best friend here.